What to Do When It All Becomes Too Much…
The past two months have both flown by and moved as slowly as a glacier. On Mother’s Day a secret was discovered, and my marriage was forever changed by it. With hard work and a rededication to each other and what we’ve created together, we are healing.
The process is slow. And challenging. And scary. And wonderful.
Life is a big jumbled mess for me right now, and I’m trying to get back on track. One way I’m doing that is journaling. I have always wanted to be a journaler, but could never stick with it. I thought I needed to sit down each night before bed and recount what I had done.
But then I decided to cut myself some slack. I put A LOT of pressure on myself to do things the way I think they, “should” be done. But that’s just setting myself up to fail, isn’t it? I’m dropping the ball in all areas of my life right now…home, work, family, friendships, Random Acts of Amy…and I’m trying to pick those balls up in a different way. In a way that makes me feel good and alive – not the way I think things, “should” be done.
I’m being kinder and gentler with myself. I do not have to be perfect. I’m letting things go if they don’t give me joy and build me up into a better person. In a sense, it makes me chuckle to think that I’m nearly 48 years old and I’m just figuring all of this out now.
This blog is going to change a bit. It won’t be focused and consumed with embroidery. Oh, I’ll still have embroidery! And cross stitch, and decluttering, and librarianship, and books, and my pets, and rescue work, and so much more that makes me, ME.
Yes, I’m committing a crime in the blogging world by not have one clear focus for my blog. But, I suppose the one clear purpose is myself and growing into a better person.
I hope you’ll stick around – who knows where the journey will take us!