It’s a New Year, and I’m going to make myself into a new me!
I’m sure you’ve heard it from other people, but 2010 really sucked! For me, I was laid off, finishing my MLIS, struggled with depression, graduated, got my dream job, moved to a city an hour and a half away from everything and everyone I’d known, and I ate my way through it all. I’m the heaviest and most out of shape that I’ve been in my whole life, and it really sucks. I’m embarrassed for my old friends to see me like this, and when we were back in Rockford for Xmas Eve, I didn’t go out with Todd and my brother because I was too ashamed for people to see how fat I had gotten (My family told me I was ridiculous, and I my friends wanted to see me no matter what. They just didn’t understand.)
I started looking through photos of myself to see when this had all happened. Certainly since I was laid off in January 2010, although at my old job we had all been feeling nervous and scared for the 9 months prior. Being laid off at that time was the best thing that could have happened to me, but it was still an uncertain and difficult time. I think it was May 2010 when I finally went to my doctor to get an antidepressant, although I should have done it a long time before that. He prescribed Cymbalta, and that worked for a while, but then stopped. I didn’t quite figure this out, though until early December, and was then switched to Pristiq. It seems to be working, and I finally feel more like my old self (except for all the extra weight!!).
Now I need to do something
about the extra weight…
My health insurance, Blue Cross Blue Shield of Illinois, has a program where I pay $29 a month, and I have access to a bunch of health clubs and gyms. I’d already signed up at Bally through the insurance and went a couple of times before I got really sick. Over the weekend I discovered that Curves is included, too. I’d heard a lot of good things about Curves, and it seemed as though it would be less intimidating than Bally. So I went there tonight, and, man, did it kick my butt! I had no idea I’d sweat or get as tired as I got, but it was one heck of a workout, and I cannot wait to go back! Plus, on Saturday and Monday mornings they offer Curves Circuit Zumba!
I’ve seen and heard a lot of friends talking about how fun Zumba is, and I want to try it. The Bally I go to doesn’t offer it, and other places in Naperville charge quite a bit of money. The soonest I’ll be able to do Zumba at Curves is on January 15th. I’ll fill you in about it then. I’m also in the hold queue for a bunch of the official Zumba DVDs at my library. Maybe that’s something Todd and I can do together
I was talking with Logan yesterday, and he said that if you put yourself out there, and you tell everyone what you intend to do, you’re more likely to do it. So, this is what I’ve done here.
I am ready to hold myself accountable.